I am uncomfortable with popularity. I never liked the popular guy because he seemed too exposed. I guess I am uncomfortable with popularity because I don’t want to fall into the be seen not heard category, being an attractive women with a popular man that can happen and has happened. Amber Rose wasn’t heard until she broke up with Kanye . I think she is interesting person. She has been quoted telling aspiring video hoes to sell an image not their bodies. Also I always associated popularity with unnecessary drama and the rumor mill both of which I choose to not be a part of.
I guess this something I need to work on because at the end of the day, I believe in enjoying the person I choose to be with no matter what; popularity shouldn’t bother me. I guess I’m just leery. I am the person who is not on fb for more than a day at a time per business quarter and who sporadically tweets. I kept a very low profile for reasons but it has become a way of life for me and I like it that way… Kinda like being a phantom. I move seamlessly in an out of social groups without leaving anything more than memories.
I guess the funniest part about all of this is I’ve never felt more like myself than I do at this time in my life. I am content with who I am becoming and where my life is headed. So it’s not about insecurity; even the thought of me being insecure is crazy. I’m working on it though so as he would say… Stay Tuned.