Countdown to 2012: What I’m looking forward to in 2012.

Most of the time I don’t like to have expectations because they often lead to disappointment.  When I was child I learned to not expect things because that was the easiest way to get hurt.  Well I’m changing that this year.  I expect for things to be great.  I’m looking forward to the challenge of making some real changes based on what I learned thus far.  I am looking forward to my niece turning one, to seeing my friends and family prosper.  I am looking forward to Loving myself first for a change, to not not put anyone or anything in the way of my own happiness. I’m looking forward to being happy and feeling happy not just thinking it but actually being it. I’m also looking forward to just seeing how everything plays out because it’s about time for this plot to change.

Countdown to 2012: Sum up 2011 in one word.

Stagnant… At times I felt trapped this year its like I’m looking at the world through the window.  I felt as though I was just existing and not living.  I refuse to let that happen in 2012. It was like the world kept going and I stopped.  Nothing too bad happen but neither did a whole lot of good. I had more reasons for going about things the way I did, stability was much more important to me this year than it had been in the past for various reasons. I think it was year of rude awakenings in my life and now I can say “Lord I hear you loud and clear”.  I need to start listening to voice in side of me.